This one is about K. One of the most talented and inspiring people I have ever met. A musical belter with the spirit of Audrey Hepburn and the poetic grace of Emily Dickinson. And a fire that lit passion in every direction she turned, in every way she burned.
K was a warrior always looking for a new goal, a new passion, and often a new name. She had some demons as all angels do. She went for her dreams and didn’t let the haters drag her down.
Thanks for the inspiration K, thanks for the memories. Here is a throw way back to the beginning. Just know that I love you, as I ever did and am fiercely proud of what you have achieved. I know you don’t need me or anyone else. But if you ever want to talk again. I have an open heart and open ears for you.
And here is the chain going back 6 years for this one
k-Dear Curly, thanks for leaving the toilet seat up. K
c- I’m sorry
c-I am really sorry. I am just not that much of a gentleman. But I did burn that cd and played tennis with you, so i am not all bad right. no you’re right I am a terrible person, horrible, bad
k-I like how you feel the need to send me 2 messages of response. 5 AM man, do you ever sleep-i-f-y yourself?
c-Is that one of those “I like how you” when you really are incredibly annoyed by said “like?”
I sleepify by waking up 3 hours ago. no tennis i guess, huh? unless you want to play indoor?
k- not incredibly annoyed…amused
dunno…it was rainy, and it is sort of late ish
c-the indoor place is open til 10, if your still interested…ill even pay part of your guest fee if you like…haha theres two messages
k- ha ha
last time they didn’t even make me pay!
Wonder if that will happen again.
If you want to…pick a time out of your magic hat and we’ll go
c- alrite I gotta find my hat though…hmmmm… idk… maybe under the bed? Well i don’t see it…closet! there it is! woo hoo.
Now the time, yes let me just reach in here and… yep thats a good time there. 7:30 i will be at your place we’ll start playing at 8 when we get there. Is that cool?… the hat tipped itself expressing its aqcuiessece, now its just up to you.
k- i guess you are picking me up then?
but its not necessary
non necesse est
also we should start playing at 7:30 when we don’t get there
c- ok, as a matter of fact I am already playing
k- yeah, i’d love to play
you are in my same class so you know my schedule basically
c- so what do you think about friday?
also do you want to play tomorrow after class?
k- hey does anyone want to play? nice metaphor
yeah after class thursdays works well
c-you are right hope imrpov is gagoing well. I want to take voice lessons. you should help me with that since you say your teacher is good.
k- yeah he’s great ok
Tf (phone number)
but his schedule is tight. you have so many dreams and goals! I’m guessing you took a rain check on the magic carpet ride…
p.s. do we need anything prepared for ___ class?
k- so when s said that about casting her
i just about died.
thanks for the flower and note, ur a sweetie.
b- I know (both statements)
And this is how my heart opens up. And after about a few days and a few thousand thoughts and word in my head, I am completely immersed. The vatta pitta kapha works fast.
Each fall is a soft and gentle rumble with the potential to turn into a force 5 storm or the most beautiful starry night.
That’s why I dive in head first every time. I am a phenomenal swimmer and have weathered many storms. And the rewards when you get to the moment of total connection and grace, even if only for a night, these are worth all the pain.
I could endure 11 months pain and prison all for one sweet month time spent with every single one of my lost loves. (inspired by robert burns)
With each one, I have learned more of myself. And by loving each fully and experiencing their grace…they have taught me how to love myself
So thank you K and M and S for the most abundant lessons. Thank you L and L and J and K and N and L and K and B and J and E and S and Z and A and all of you.
Special thanks to K for first inspiring my travel bug and providing impressive inspiration. To M for igniting my NY spirit for the first time and showing me wisdom beyond both my and her years. And to S. …for the most abundant and graceful love. For the empathy to understand and the acceptance of my entire spirit. The greatest lesson you have all taught me is how to get of my funk and get out into the world. To love the world, to love myself. I am infinitely grateful for the grace of all of your open spirits. It always and ever has been an honor to know you all.
“But I love your feet
only because they walked
upon the earth and upon
the wind and upon the waters,
until they found me.” Pablo Neruda
Thank you for revealing the light in my heart.